40 Min Drive - 10 Years Back!

The date is 26 Dec 2009 & on this day exactly I went back to my Engineering college & nothing has really changed except for few colours and touch ups.Wow!!



I am the 1st person to reach there at 11:10 AM as the reunion was scheduled at 11:00 AM & slowly everyone walks in & Booomm!!!! We are 10 years younger & the place is Nadergul, College is MVSR Engineering College, the batch is 2003 & the stream is ECE.

These few steps have finally taken all the friends back to an age where we used to spend hot noons in basketball & volleyball courts. The strategies, the groups,the college, the game courts, the game & finally the friends - none have changed except the real estate. I really am feeling blessed to be a part of such a beautiful journey called Life with such golden footprints in our memories.



Irrespective of what & how successful we are, the friendship and the attitude remained the same. Some have slimmed down and some have rounded their bellies, some got married, some became proud fathers & some still single. With so many changes in life, if something has remained unchanged is our friendship ofcourse the same enthusiasm to play. Infact we played basketball too in the scorching sun and had photosession in the ECE block. It started with looking at the locked doors of the classrooms, where we used to have our lunch at 11 AM itself during the lectures.The entire classroom used to fill with an aura of beautiful home cooked food especially chapatis with aloo curries & during the regular lunch breaks chapatis never lasted more than 30 secs. Open the box- bang 10 hands rush replicating the amitabh's satte pe satta! The same roti would have taken 10 min to eat at home and still hunger would not have gone. It's not only me, everyone in the group has gone/treaded 10long years back into the memory lane and saw each one of us in the same class rooms doing the same things.




It went on by each one of us visiting the LOO to recollect how the exam paper used to get shared just 5 min after the start. All the students who were aware of the question paper are so lazy, they used to read not more than 2 or 3 answers, so that it will fetch them atleast 9 marks out of 25 & the rest of the people who have already started the exam never bothered of such leaks. 1 Centimeter 2 fold paper had 4 long answers-Could you believe that! Miniature Masters doing bachelors in Engineering.

Dragging myself back to the present, we all went to Nadergul to have lunch. we had samosas,puffs cool drinks just to make ourselves ready for the big finals. Yes we played a match and the teams are as follows.




Team A:
Jithu,
Srikanth lambu,
AVS,
Bhai,
Ravinder Naik,
Saasu(big)
Srinivasulu.

Team B:
Raki,
Subbu(Small),
Raghu,
Aamir,
Nagesh,
Prashanth
Vijay Jelli,

Guess who the winner is? ofcourse the spirit! And finally the interview session by Subbu(Chota) went on successfully with his pure telugu and impure questions.




If I had a chance to live my life again, I would definitely join the same college with same friends doing the same mistakes. After all watching so many bollywood movies it really is not difficult to make out - what sentiment means !









To add an icing on the cake, majority of the group went to "3 Idiots". Good movie presenting most of our feelings on a big screen.

I thank all of you for making my life so beautiful and making this trip more sweeter by not adding calories though.

Regards,
Santhosh Kumar.

The Beauty - Brighter Side!

See the sun has risen for me again,
See the breeze has brought fragrance for me again,
See the flowers have blossomed for me again,
See the butterfly has spread it wings for me again,
See the beauty of nature is calling me again,
I am falling in love with life again & again,
I see how beautiful my life is – Everyday!
I see how beautiful my home is – Everytime!
I see how beautiful my country is – Everyinch!
I see how beautiful my countrymen are – Everyone!
Yes I do have shortcomings, I do have limitations,
But see how privileged I am to realize the same.
My friend asked me to see the brighter side,
I am sure everyone will have such a friend!
I see I am lucky
Lucky to be a friend!
I see I am lucky
Lucky to be a student!
I see I am lucky,
Lucky to be a brother!
I see I am lucky,
Lucky to be a son!

I am in Love.
In love with Life,
In love with Soil!
I Love my India!
Jai Hind!

Santhosh Kumar.

With Stars in my eyes, I am destined to grow big!

Millions of year ago I started my journey. I am born, out of nothing,I had nothing. I created everything, whatever is today, all by my"self". I Crawled, Walked, Ran, moved ahead, worked hard and made things work & achieved great things. I consider "Questioning Ability" to be my greatest asset.From handling stones to computers, all I did is to question. Question my own "self". I got all the answers what I looked for except one.

Millions of questions I asked , millions of doubts I raised from time immemorial, I got more than one answer for every question.

That one question still haunts me "Why I am here". I have no answer.My "Self" has not responded so far. It makes me wonder, whether its a question at all in first place. If yes, whether it is right question or not. I also wonder why I came out of nothing & created so many things. Do I have enough tools in terms of senses to understand the "Purpose of being here".

"I" made this planet liveable or this planet made "me" liveable! Either way, I m damn sure about one thing. As I originated from nothing, I will end up in nothing, complying with the law of conservation of energy.

Being specific to this incarnation, I am here to live a materialistic life, being a common man, with stars in my eyes destined to become big, fulfill all desires, enduring pains with broken heart , to become stronger with every moment passing.

All I understand is experience this human life form & I am destined to grow Big !

Santhosh Kumar.

I love her!

She is So Beautiful,
I want to treasure her!
She is so truthful,
I want to hold her in my arms,
I want to keep her in my heart!
I cannot have a safer place for her.
When given a chance,
I will keep her there for the rest of my life!
Away from everyone,
Away from every other eye.
I love being extremely possessive about her,
I love being her Adam,
I love dying her loyal mate!
She is so beautiful,
She is so truthful!
My eyes & my lips feel her sense,
Her name is "Tear”, always makes my vision clear.
My love makes her sweeter than wine!
I love her- locked in my eye,
Carry her with me even after my death.
She is mine, will be always mine!

Santhosh Kumar.

Ocean of Tears !

My tear Speaks!
It consoles me,
That I m not weak!

It says,
"I m there for you,
Take care of your Smile,
As its the tougher friend,
Slips down the lips so easily,
Take care of it, treasure it"

My tear speaks,

"You can hate me,
You can shed me"

"I am there to convey your true feelings,
That too only in front of true friends"

My tear Speaks!

"Shed me,treasure smile,
Sincere smile & honest tear,
Will convey truth always"

My tear Speaks,
"Give me a way,
I will bridge the hearts,
Give me a chance
I will prove to be as sweet as wine"

My tear speaks!!

Santhosh Kumar.

I lost that 1 Min!

Some things do hurt, whether you are sensitive or not!
It's not because someone has behaved arrogantly towards you,
It's not because someone simple could not understand your pain,
It's not because someone has intentionally made you feel, the way you feel,
Why is it easy to tell, it's not because!!!
Is that Someone - Everyone or Anyone?
The answer is a straightforward "No".
Do some questions have answers at all?
In first place, is it fair enough to ask, whether it’s a question at all?
If it’s a question, for sure there will be some answer.
Its a matter of time, when I will be able to know it,
As wise people say "Time is a great teacher, unfortunately it kills its Pupil"

I am still alive, then I should have known/felt/experienced everything or atleast something,
Why do I grope in such a broad-day light when things are so crystal clear.
Why?

The worst of the worst happens, when the best is in store for you.
How long each will remain, is the testing period!
Every famous person will have his/her share of misery,
It’s only my perception what I want to see!
It’s only my life how I want to live!

As businesses, industries, economies follow cycles, so does life.
Have I come full circle?
Am I too young to speak about philosophy & enlightenment?
Learning does not cease with age, as I have seen people aged 100 going to school.
What matters is not age, the cycle.
Did I complete a full cycle, how many cycles still to complete?
I still feel the pain, jump crazily at times in joy.
Do I have to see that I lost that one min from my friend in the present?
Or I have to see that I have gathered thousands of best moments in the past.
I am waiting for the day when I will be indifferent to the moments of Joy & Sadness!


Santhosh Kumar.

Number Game !!!

How many ?

Either its financial wealth figure or a target figure.


Its just a number!! or more than a number ? just think!!

My Career depends on it.

It controls my mood.

It controls my happiness.

It controls my daily routine.

At the end of the day, it controls my sleep.

It gives me nightmares.



Number is just not a number anymore my dear friend!!!!

-Santhosh

Turning Cynical to Love!

I know the physical presence makes some relationships stronger! I know the distance makes some relationships stronger & I know some relationships are always stronger. I was lucky in the past, to first understand what friendship is! I was lucky in the past, to know what it is be in Love! I was lucky in the past,to learn what failure is!I was lucky in the past, to taste the success. I am still lucky that I still experience the same sparks, I am still Lucky that the lesson learnt, is making me understand the that present pleasant is not better than the unbearable far pain.Priorities changed, beliefs changed, faith vanished.

Present pain is always I embrace for a long run happiness.I rekindled the same old friendship, I found new Love,but I found myself, that is what is important!I understand whatever the beginning is in Love, ending is always the same! I turned Cynical.. I am happy about being the one.



My eyes never stopped from seeing, my breath never tired from breathing but my heart says enough of beating. The heavier it becomes, someone closes in. Am I serious with life or is life serious with me?

I don't have the answers,all I know is that there is a pleasantness in my loneliness & I am enjoying every moment of it too !!

Santhosh Kumar.

My Foolproof Plan!!

I did not plan to come here- But I came!
I did not plan to grow- I grew!
I did not plan to make friends- I made one!
I planned to Love, I expected it be a great success- It failed!
I planned my career, I expected it to be great-I never understood what is great!
I never planned my life situations, they happened as if the script is already written!
I never planned my death- I am sure the date is fixed!

Whatever is planned has not gone according to my expectations, whatever is not planned is already destined! Still I plan even though I fail sometimes may be all the times, but I never fail to make a plan.

Santhosh Kumar.

It Hurts when my friend,just single clicks!

I was waiting for you to reply,
Waiting for you to type your feelings,
Waiting in anticipation to hear your SMS speak,
I kept waiting & here came a forward from you,
Which was also a forward received by you,
No one knew where it originated,
Just a single click, is time left for me,
Where has the time gone?
Where has my friend gone?
Where has that memory gone?
Has everybody ahead gone?
Have I left behind waiting?
All I know is I am still waiting !!
Still Waiting !!!

Santhosh Kumar.

The Easier Route- Being Corrupt or Being Blue

Do we live to eat or do we eat to live!! I am quite confused many times may be all the times. The reason why I get confused is the priority given to all the other things in life, rather than giving the life the priority itself.

When a drop in an ocean refuses to be blue, does it make any difference!! May be not to the ocean, but definitely to the drop.In similar way, everyone's objective in the world is to live & if the the method to choose the way to lead the life is based on truth & ethical values by everyone, the might of an ocean will make a cleaner & safer world to live.

Now the big question is how to live? Being rich,being ethical,being successful,being popular,being austere. Everything you think can be achieved but at what cost is the next question. At the cost of ones conscience, ones moral rights, ones ethical values! One thing is certain for everyone, thats death.Only thing uncertain is its timing.If death is so certain, do we take along whatever we achieved,whatever we desired? Is it so important to achieve whatever we desire at any cost? Do I have to corrupt myself to achieve/or get things done? Is bribe the easier route or simply changing the focus an easier route.Now if every drop in an ocean decides to be blue,noway that ocean can look green. It has to be blue only. This holds true as someone rightly said " Denied Cooperation, even the most corrupt will collapse".

In my own capacity, I can deny cooperation as a first step.Next in case of compulsion, where I dont have any option, then I take help of other drops to make this ocean. I create waves knocking the right door. Staying in Bangalore, we have a good option in this case, as the news9 channel supports people who dare enough to call the channel, when someone asks for a bribe. Just you to dial "9980788999" and they will help you shoot the culprit red handedly.Don't turn green, if you have a chance and support to be blue.I am not scared of enemies outside my country , but my own corrupt countrymen threaten me about its unity. It is the same in case of any country for that matter. Lets join in fighting the common terror and lets be blue united like a mighty ocean made of tiny blue drops. Prefer the easier route, keep your conscience clean and objectives clean, the life will be easier and so will be death!!

Santhosh Kumar.

My Friendship!

The difference between a best friend and a just friend is that one extra moment of sharing, is that one extra bit of understanding, is simply one extra than everyone else & everything else. I had my moments of bests in life. Best academic performance, best friendship, first love which is the best & its failure that turned me into cynic towards love & life. All feelings touched my heart & soul so far. The one string which always touched by my best friend is the faith one. The more faith one has shown in me and my friendship, the more my worth, value for that friend and friendship increased.

Corporate world dragging me into gutters, failures weakening my strength day by day, I always wonder, what would it take for me to reach to the top. I always left myself at crossroads. But I found one lotus in that gutters which kept me going, which keeps inspiring me, which gives me a reason to smile.

There are times which are unexplainable, unbearable and unimaginable. I know what pain my friend is going through; alas I can’t take away that pain. All that I can do in this world is just wait for the pain to subside, just wait for the difficult moment to pass by, just wait for my friend to smile back, waiting beside my friend to recover. I have never felt so helpless in the world, when the problem is not shared! When no one understands what I am going through to understand my friend’s problem. Why can’t I simply become such a powerful strength, that the fiercest of the stabs won’t hurt my friend! I am desperate to know what’s going through my friend’s mind & dying to feel what experience the heart is feeling. The dark pain whenever raises its ugly head, the bright smile of my friend’s does a beautiful miracle, not once or twice but every time. A great man truly said, “You may be just one person to this world, but for someone you are the world”.


The limitation of my knowledge, the limitation of my wisdom, the limitation of being human makes me realize that how limited I thought and how unlimited I expect from a friend! It takes ages or may be a lifetime for me to understand, that life has it own plans has its own order has its own priorities, so does my friend have. Why I want to keep my friend in my eyes & close them forever, why I keep my friend in my heart and never show it to the world. Why I always want to keep it for myself!

Am I selfish? The answer is simple. No I am not. I am possessive, extremely possessive!

The day is never far away infact the moment is never faraway, anytime may GOD call back my journey, I take pride and walk into the heavens head held high just because of you & your friendship, my dear friend.

Santhosh Kumar.

Do I really Love Someone!

I never dreamt of reaching sky, as it is far away,
But I tried reaching it by throwing a stone at it, it fell down,
I tried to fly by a plane, but still it was not conquered!
I tried Love and the sky started bowing down to it , so I reached that level.
Innocent ignorant acceptance of love by Sky, is it ignored by me?
It is no more seen as a unconquerable destination.
I left for one more journey, one more destination with full confidence and success behind me!
Did I forget the generosity of the Sky!

During the course of my life,I always come across sky like family, friends, teachers, bosses, every other person who directly or indirectly helped me achieve what I wanted.New Successes achieved, new relationships formed,craving for new always exist,fading the old ones slowly.Do I realize the importance of the old ones when I have no more have strength to seek a new thing!

I don't know, but I realize that lots of people infact everybody in this world is craving for love as I do, but very few ready to give it! Truly said by few wise people, one who receives love, does not realize its value and one who hasn't received it,dies in anticipation of just receiving it!

Santhosh Kumar.

Its Man after GOD - Being Human!

Dog has to depend always on its owner. For everything from food to shelter to Companionship to acceptance. Irrespective of the behaviour of its master, it can only be have to be loyal.

Cat has to steal milk so often that it has no options left in fast growing urban cities where there are no rats in houses and almost all the houses have fridges and milk is safely kept inside it.

Horses have nothing else to do in their entire life except running for his/her master! Such a marvelous & gorgeous sight when it runs. Alas it can't do that on its own. What a pity!

The great royal tigers have to constantly fight for survival in this urban Jungle by becoming a meek cat captured in a cage or showcased in a zoo and if somehow it is born in some natural Jungle then the might with which it hunts, the spectacular sight of strength is simply royal and so its name King of the Jungle! (I am taking Lion also in the same category).

Eagle the greatest of the flights it can take with ease at thousands of feet above the land but still with such precision of finding its prey in few inches perimeter on the ground, makes envy for any other species! Alas what else in its life can do! is there any other option for it. I don't think so.

Every animal/bird is given a particular trait which is the perfection of God's creation. There are thousands, millions of species which have one particular predominant trait. The trees are also the same. They are no different.

How different is a Man? He is not given any particular predominant thought. But he can achieve/ be like whatever he wants. He can be loyalist more than a dog,he can be the best thief, run faster than horses, fly better than Eagles. Apart from these mentioned, he can do millions of other things which are not in existence today. Why?

Because he is blessed with the greatest gift by GOD & it is "Thinking Brain". Just because of this we are ahead of all other species and I am thankful to GOD bestowing me such a wonderful life.

Now is it worth pondering over silly mistakes, silly fights, and silly arguments, silly targets, really silly silly things in life? Life is too precious to be wasted on such things .

Just worth thinking with the gift we have!

Santhosh Kumar.

Questioning the Almighty!

When I was sleeping, you woke me up from my mother's womb!
When I was innocent, you gave caring parents to look after me.
when I was ignorant,you sent many teachers and gave me education.
When I was in teens, you made me feel about first love.
When I was in adulthood, I understood success, you gave me a failure to understand that!
Now I grew old enough, I can't understand why I question your mere existence!
Have I walked long enough, that I can really know that I know you!

Lord I am at crossroads!

Santhosh Kumar.